Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
My Year in Review
So it's almost one year since I retired, and entered anything into this blog.
It would seem that an update is in order. Or maybe by now I'm reviewing this whole retirement lifestyle and still working on its shape and content---and am I content with its content????
Well, I still watch my darling Rosie on Mondays. That's the only scheduled day in my week, and I need to "deal" with the rest of the week!
The unscheduled time also coincided with the gray, cold days of late November and the snowy days of early December. I don't need to battle the roads commuting to work--the good news. I still keep running into myself and the (sometimes) exciting prospect of open time and choices--the bad news!
During all the scripted days of my former life, I twisted and struggled against the confines of filled-in time, bursting with children and work and home stuff. I reminded myself then that I should celebrate every busy, lively moment of these "normal" days, for one day I may prove nostalgic and yearn for their return.
Not yearning for all that activity again, but I keep bumping into myself these days, without the barrier (or camouflage) of set-up, immutable things-to-do and places-to-go. I can do what I want, go where I want......this is a scary, unfamiliar sensation. An immediate reaction was to find a part-time job, somewhere to be and something to do that would be dictated by an outside force, almost beyond my control.
But my confused insides are telling me that the job-thing is not the answer. I still want the flexible time in my days to be available to the grandbabies and my kids, to take a few continuing ed courses, to plumb my shaky depths for what lurks there.
And what lurks there will be splattered all over this blog.
There---already a new game plan!
It would seem that an update is in order. Or maybe by now I'm reviewing this whole retirement lifestyle and still working on its shape and content---and am I content with its content????
Well, I still watch my darling Rosie on Mondays. That's the only scheduled day in my week, and I need to "deal" with the rest of the week!
The unscheduled time also coincided with the gray, cold days of late November and the snowy days of early December. I don't need to battle the roads commuting to work--the good news. I still keep running into myself and the (sometimes) exciting prospect of open time and choices--the bad news!
During all the scripted days of my former life, I twisted and struggled against the confines of filled-in time, bursting with children and work and home stuff. I reminded myself then that I should celebrate every busy, lively moment of these "normal" days, for one day I may prove nostalgic and yearn for their return.
Not yearning for all that activity again, but I keep bumping into myself these days, without the barrier (or camouflage) of set-up, immutable things-to-do and places-to-go. I can do what I want, go where I want......this is a scary, unfamiliar sensation. An immediate reaction was to find a part-time job, somewhere to be and something to do that would be dictated by an outside force, almost beyond my control.
But my confused insides are telling me that the job-thing is not the answer. I still want the flexible time in my days to be available to the grandbabies and my kids, to take a few continuing ed courses, to plumb my shaky depths for what lurks there.
And what lurks there will be splattered all over this blog.
There---already a new game plan!
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